May 25, 2014
Sundays and I have been in a fight lately. But I think we're about to make up.
I have been finding myself crying every Sunday, lately. At least over the past several weeks. This is not incredibly surprising since I'm, like, the most emotional person you've ever encountered, but it's really been throwing a wrench in my days. WHY AM I CRYING SO MUCH, I've found myself wondering. I LOVE SUNDAYS, WHAT'S THE DEAL!?! But I think I've figured it out.
See for me, Sundays are for cleaning. I enjoy throwing on (loud) music and starting the process of cleaning up the crumbs of the week before. Sweeping, dusting, vacuuming, etc. I am, by no means, a "clean freak," but I love how fresh the house looks/smells/feels after a solid wipe down, shaking off all of the remainders of the days prior, setting it up for a new week.
I also find myself cleaning out my mind, heart and soul on Sundays. It typically starts with a church service, where I am fed spiritually and emotionally. Hoping to carry on the feeling I get after hearing God's word, I usually find myself reading, writing or studying later in the day, with a tendency to focus on things that will satisfy my heart and mind (don't worry - I gorge myself on junk TV and such on Saturdays.) I prepare myself for the week ahead, while reflecting on the days I've just left behind.
Because of this routine, Sundays tend to be full of reflection, contemplation, and grace-filled insights. Thinking of what my life looks like now, remembering what it looked like before, daydreaming of what my life may look like in the future. Shaking off the worries and the burdens and sitting in utter awe of God's unconditional love and grace. And because, remember, I'm, like, the most emotional person you've ever encountered, I typically find myself with tears streaming down my face.
But it's okay because crying is my reaction to most emotions - happiness, sadness, frustration, anger, elation, boredom - and I believe it is my soul's way of cleansing itself.
So even though Sundays make me cry...I adore them. What other day of the week can you wake up slow, drink obscene amounts of coffee, be fed spiritually while visiting with friends and family, enjoy nap time, and reorganize your life for the days ahead?
I hope your Sundays are just as lovely. But maybe a bit less emotional.